my motivation is… eu?

I resolved as one of goals this new year to find more motivation for my work. After reading an adoring piece on Emmanuel Macron, the liberal European independent candidate running in France’s presidential race, and revisiting my post-Brexit blog post here, I think the only plausible reason is massively macro: the EU itself. I am a part of the Union by way of working for an EU program. If I believe so strongly in this economic, political, cultural, administrative project – which I do – then I need to do my best to contribute to it by being a high-quality, functioning cog of the administration (go on, call it bureaucracy…).

Let’s see if I can’t stick that on my desktop monitor to get me going tomorrow…

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puzzle pieces

Life and career isn’t just one long ladder we need struggle to climb up, one rung leading to the next level up. Rather, I think of my career as a collection of amazing experiences. I look at each one as a piece of the puzzle that builds the big picture of my lifetime’s body of work, rather than a linear progression where the next move always means more money/prestige/responsibility.

– Iris

hier ist alles möglich

meine Spuren auf unberührtem Schnee
meine Spuren auf unberührtem Schnee

Ich möchte auf dem vorherigen Thema (‘Hier könnte dein Traum ausgeführt werden‘) näher eingehen.

Mein Cousin ist nach einem Austauschsemester in Wien wieder in Kanada (sogar an der Uni, die meine Alma Mater ist). Er schreibt, dass die letzten vier Monaten die glücklichsten und besten waren, die er bisher erlebt hat. Er habe nicht nur eine neue Ecke der Welt, sondern auch etwas Neues über ihn selbst, entdeckt. Dieses Gefühl kann ich komplett nachempfinden, weil es für mich nach meinem Austauschsemester in Uppsala dasselbe war.

Es geht um die großen Fragen “Wer bin ich?” und “Was kann/will ich machen?”Read More »

cognitive dissonance

cognitive dissonance (n): the state of maintaining two seemingly contradictory ideas

On the one hand, I don’t really believe that my continuing failure to find a job has anything (or much) to do with my gender or race. I think the positions I have been applying for are simply really competitive. I also believe that many of the other applicants are as qualified or more qualified than I am. Either my knowledge/experience is lacking or I didn’t sell myself well enough.Read More »

parodying frost on a pensive evening

Where employment is I think I know.
It lies in uninteresting areas though.
I wouldn’t want to be working here
In fields in which I cannot grow.

My family and friends must think it queer
To resign without an offer near
And during a recession, for pete’s sake!
Darker prospects we’ve not had in years.

Some days I give my head a shake
And ask if I made some mistake.
Then I remember not to weep –
Rather, focus on the deadlines I have to make.

Regret is lovely, dark and deep,
But I have doubts across which to leap,
And applications to write before I sleep,
And applications to write before I sleep.